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hi.

i havent blogged in a long time.
i have been up and down
tryin to struggle though :)
til yesterday, my dad got taken to hospital. this morning i found out he had been taken to intensive care during the night. the nurse said 'hes a very sick man' im not coping. i have switched off. completely. i know that if anything happens to him, it will destroy me. im scared if what i might do. they will have to lock me up probably.

sorry.
im tryin to keep positive, but i am so scared.