I feel like I want to destroy myself. I have just been looking through old photos of myself. I never realised what I had. Friends, a future, happiness, hope. I fucked it all and I'm fucking angry. How did I let this happen? I barely even recognise the girl in those photos. It hurts so deeply I cannot even put words to it. I ruined my entire life. Tore it apart. Now I have nothing. At all.